Ever do anything that just makes you feel like total shit?

Usually I am a very calm and collected person who can let almost anything roll off my back.  

But last night, seeing my ex, who I still love, who also says she still loves me, at the club with her new boyfriend just made me flip my shit.

What I should have done was just say hey happy birthday and leave to do my own thing.  But no, I got all uppity and said a couple of not very nice things and kind of ruined the mood for her birthday.  (way to go me)

After apologizing this morning for my actions I will spend the rest of the day beating myself up for being mean to the one person who means so much to me, and praying that she will forgive me and talk to me again.