Dear blog. I created you in order to help with the pain I was suffering caused by someone that I love dearly.  The original point of this blog is no longer relevant in my life. For all who have read so far I appreciate your time, I will still share some thoughts from time to time, some things that are close to me, but also more stuff about my life and person in general. This blog will probably be a bit more quiet though.

This person mentioned above is about completely out of my life, which in some respects is unfortunate, I put fourth my best effort to make things work. Unfortunately that person turned out to be far more immature than I imagined. However its a new year, a new girl has entered my life. 

Were taking it slow as we have both been hurt in the past. I will try to love this person as if I have never been hurt before. though it will be very hard because the slippery gypsy will always be there sowing fear and doubt in my heart and mind.   I am strong though, and still have faith that love does exist.

I leave you with these lyrics,

“You were everything, everything that I wanted.

We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it.

All of the memories so close to me just fade away.

All this time you were pretending, so much for my happy ending.

Its nice to know that you were there

Thanks for acting like you care

Making me feel like I was the only one

Its nice to know we had it all

Thanks for watching as I fall, letting me know we were done.”

Holy shit, a 700 horse power lambo?! And its sexy as always.  May I please be a billionaire ?
Seriously, how crazy is lambo that they name their cars after famous bulls.

Suspicion is one of the morbid reactions by which an organism defends itself and seeks another equilibrium. -Nathaline Sarraute

“There are two ways to live: you can live as if nothing is a miracle; you can live as if everything is a miracle.” -Albert Einstein.

Not sure if I entirely agree with this. But I do like the quote

So here I was talking to one of my favorite friends about relationships and marriage.

It has become apparent to me recently that I have not ever had a good model for relationships simply because there havent been any successful relationships of people close to me in my life that I could reflect on. My parents are divorced and the same is true with most of my friends. And for the friends that have married parents still…. Well their parents are typically in a position where they dont love each other anymore or have some sort of serious marital problem that does not allow them anymore to be a functional team. 

So talking to my friend, who is one of the only people I know who has had a good set of parents to model after. I was talking to him about how he solves his relationship and soon to be marital problems. 

He said that talking about things and putting yourself in the other persons shoes works rather well.  Something more that caught my attention, I asked him how he felt about being married so early, hes not even twenty one years old yet.  He mentioned that with how long their relationship has been. There are many situations and times where the maturity of their relationship has outgrown the typical maturity of their age. Given that and their dedication to each other it has become harder for them to not be married because they have already committed so much of their lives together. Mentioning also that the way they have been able to grow as themselves as well as grow together in a relationship has made him understand that relationships are not about just finding a perfect person who matches you, but instead about finding someone you work well enough with to be able to take the time and decide that its worth it to grow together.

Through the conversation I ended up being incredibly impressed by the amount of maturity this twenty year old kid had been able to articulate. Honestly, I have hope for this relationship and I believe that they will truly be able to work.  Its reassuring, thought I might share that with you all.

Also, happy new year, lest make “the last year” count. haha

Been a while that I have properly posted something here. Been busy lately I guess.  Lots always going on in life. Had a christmas present arrive in the mail today. that was interesting. Spent all day waiting on getting an alignment done on my mothers car, apparently when you schedule an appointment you dont actually get your car in the shop at that time…. frustrating. anyway ill have some cool pictures and stuff coming soon. Just needed to get on and type something to the void of the internet. somethings slightly reassuring about it.

Happy christmas day everyone, hopefully you all enjoy it!

Typical Mitsi owners looking for excuses and trying to sound cool there at the end.

As a whole Subaru owners love to dominate and destroy Evo’s. Love, its what makes a Subaru a Subaru.

Forgive me for my sins……. Wait a second here. So what your telling me is, that I have been put on this shit hole planet, with all of the horrible things that happen in life, made to suffer through heart ache and physical pain, when I never even had a chance to live a life without “sin”. And I am supposed to ask YOU for forgiveness? That does not make any fucking sense.

Maybe it should be us offering up our forgiveness….

Yep, hardest shit in my life, not school, nor work, but the only thing I care about……. I want to be back to this time and date  10:13am 5/21/2011.